Saturday, January 26, 2013
Everything in my life seems so good right now that I'm afraid to blink because it will change and change cannot be better.
Today was such a good day. The one thing that makes me the happiest is to talk about serious ideas with people who are also attracted to talking about serious ideas. Right now about 99% of those big ideas that I want to discuss are about God. But it's so hard, when you have a big topic, a big question that can't be covered by an answer in the hallway after Sunday school, to find a place to talk about it. My questions tend to be tangents and I don't want to monopolize a Sunday school class or a small group Bible study that has its own aims or goals or direction.
So what's a girl to do? Well, I have harnessed the power of Facebook, created a super-secret private group, invited four friends, and participated in an absolutely fantastic discussion regarding eternal security.
As my reading gets more serious and I'm learning more, I find that I just want to learn MORE. The biggest revelation to me has been the writings of the Puritans -- so many brilliant theologians who wrestled with every issue I could ever imagine. I can't wait to finish reading John Piper's Future Grace because I know I'll start something else wonderful. (And I'm really in no hurry to finish FG because every page is a revelation.)
I go back and forth, back and forth. Just absolutely thrilled with the path I'm on -- and then I see how wretched I am, how far I have to go. But then I see how much God loves me, how the way to opening myself to His power and receiving his blessings is through an increased faith in all His promises, and I'm just overjoyed.
The discussion between yesterday and today was SO uplifting, SO encouraging, SO illuminating...I'm so grateful for the chance to have it.
God is good. All the time.